Saturday, April 30
well yesterday was the last day that i would be sitting outside the HOD...
mr tony tan happy le la ...
mr ow dunnoe where he go , he got PE arr...
well tuesday going back to class ...
dammit...
was so happy about going to class on monday untill my mum told me that monday no skul...
dang...
errmmmzz , made friends with a few people ...
girls , guys ...
even those that my friends won't approve ...
haha , i dunnoe what to do , i'm a social person ...
but whatever it is , brothers come first...(but b4 brothers family larr)
haha...
today maybe going out , meet wawan , follow him collect his pants...
or jeans , whatever...
he always asks me out to the gym at the wrong time arr...
slenger...
eh wawan , kerana kau eh , handle baldi aku putus kau tau tak...
nak angkat barang nyer pasal...
hahaha...
today i suspect my mum working night shift , that wud mean a lot of things , dun go home oso can...
wawan suggested slack umah dier...
member yer yer ...
kau gi larr tanyer dulu family kau...
tak takot kerr kalau aku rogol kau kaper kerr...
hahaha...
lately had a fight with her...
i am numb to all of her words...
maybe i'm slowly forgetting her...
i guess its best for both parties...
haiya , forget about it arr...
i'll never walk alone ...
i got a lot more friends...
but memories of a dear friend would never fade away...
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[Your Name Here] @ Saturday, April 30, 2005
Thursday, April 28
well today woke up a bit late ...
went to court , reached exactly 9:00am...
well was asked to go to a certain place to do something...
and get something from that place so that he would close the case...
did that...
came back...
AND FUCKING WAITED FOR 3 1/2 HOURS...
and only went in for only 3minutes...
WAS FUCKED UP...
haha...
decided to not go to school...
was fuking tired...
ohw i fell asleep at the waiting lounge...
hahaha...and so did that bodily babe opposite of me...
haha , she reminded me of kiat ying in some way...
well currently brewing sumting up...
hahaha...tell u guys when it finishes...
i'll show u the chat log when evrything surfaces...
remind me guys...
well now just freaking bored...
tomorrow the last day outside the HOD room...
MONDAY GO BACK CLASS...
i'm happy...
yes i am, why wudn i???
think about it man...
haha...
blog again tomorrow i guess...
dun tell any1 , this is between u and me...
i love you to bits...
yes...
bits...
chocolate chip cookies...
kwang3
[Your Name Here] @ Thursday, April 28, 2005
Monday, April 25
i felt a knife slicing open the skin...
my heart was constricted...
i was not allowed to show it all , not allowing it...
it was as if one of those movies...
where in a distance , someone waves goodbye to you and then walks away...
and you smile...
it was one of those classic hallmark movies...
i wasn't able to say , show or even do what i really felt like doing...
i just smiled...
i fell in love again and again...
each time i see her , each time i think of her...
i dun want this to interfere with my schoolwork and stuff...
but its unbareable...
i hope u understand...
i just wish that i cud be open , even for a moment , about my love for u...
i want the whole world to noe...
but its just to hard to do as i wud never wanna hurt u in any way...
i've lost ur trust b4 and is so afraid of losing it again...
i came back to school afraid to face you...
afraid to tok to you...
yet u do as if there was nothing...
its smothering me this constant pain...
the butterflies in my stomach is making me puke...
choking me as they try to get out...
and so is my feelings...
i'm just terribly sad...
disappointed in myself in a way...
i just wanna tell u I TRULLY LOVE YOU...
well friends who've been helping me try to get over it...
i'm sorry , i just can't , i had just sacrified too much...
ini bukan cinta monyet yang korang slalu pikirkan...
it strangles my heart , defining any movement of the blood to any part of my body...
i'm numb...
just numb...
CONFESSIONS PART I
[Your Name Here] @ Monday, April 25, 2005
YESTERDAY
met wawan at hougang at supposedly 4:30 ...
thinking i was really2 late , well he was standardly later...
he passed me the jeans , and we went to hougang mall i think...
he got contact lenses...
brown...
i guess it wasn't that obvious...
but nice...
waddya expect from cheap contact lenses??? PERFECT???
riiiiiite...
after that went to this small "pasar malam" ...
wahlau chicken tepanyaki is bloody $2 for only 3 balls...
and the bamboo juice was $2 a bottle as well...
and we then proceeded to one blk where we chilled for a while...
talked about life...
i guess...
had a really good time...
then proceeded to his house to get more cigarettes...
cancelled the plans to meet res2...
cause he wanted to meet at 9+ ...
and i had plans today , so i said its ok...
after getting to wawans home we proceeded downstairs..
and after the cig finished , i made my way home...
and the rest is a blur...hahaha...
TODAY
well i went to school...
huahua...
peeps were surprised to see me again...
i actually have a lot more friends than i tot...
hahaha...k k...
i really see that peeps actually miss me...
haha...
well of course...HAD TO BLOODY SIT OUTSIDE THE HOD...
sheesh...
k not gonna tok anymore...
ciao...
[Your Name Here] @ Monday, April 25, 2005
Sunday, April 24
well ,yesterday , at approximately 3:40 ...
left the house on the way to meet armin for reasons that shudn be known...
soon after i reached there , res2 came...
made our transaction ...
and armin was on his way for jamming...
wawan was standardly late...
maklumlah anak dara2 skarang...
mesti nak lawa2...
so me and res2 had a smoke and a drink at mcdonalds...
then he finally came...
kwang3...
well proceeded to bugis...
finally realised that it was getting boring everytime i go there...
like DAMN boring...
wawan bought this really cool jeans...
nabueysturbanz...
nice arrr...
tapi suspect kalau duduk terjojol nyer...
hahaha...
tapi orite arr...
eh bobal pasal jeans kan..
camner the surest way to noe which are for guys and which are for girls...
sundalanz...
hahaha...
k arr...
pastu dah takder arah nak tuju lagik...
kiter proceeded to esplanade...
been awhile since i've been there...
samer jerrr aku tengok...
well we relaxed by the marina ehh??? marina kan??? thats what its called kan???entarrr arrr , sbelah air arr...hahahaa...
hmmm...
had a drink from the kedai dekat ngan ah peks ice-cream...
tak salah beli , sprite ice (mine) F&N Grape (res2) soya bean(wawan)...
pastu proceed pasir ris...
met saifaz,tetekz(kwang3) and hawa...
went to pasir ris town park...
i think i made hawa cry...
SORRY!!!
well i was just reminiscing , singing to the tunes of obssesion...
got to the chorus and she started crying...
anjat boboi...
well after that evry1 parted...
me and wan took the same bus...
once got home ...
check comp...
terus KO ...
ngantoks kedemak siotz...
k bye , will blog bout today laterz...
[Your Name Here] @ Sunday, April 24, 2005
Saturday, April 23
well yesterday , went out again at 6...
went to changi village...
i was like so damn early sia...
hahaha...
well finally met them all...
well i met saifaz , tetekz(kwang3) , joker , hawa and faris...
then later met wawan and pyro at the beach...
had a great time , despite the fact that takder rokz...
saifaz was at the beach alone ...
so decided to see whats wrong...
so we chatted a lots...
then pyro joined us...
then tetekz(kwang3) joined...
then finally hawa...
then pyro and wawan was m.i.a ...
joker and faris was at the "pit" ...
me , saifaz , hawa and tetekz(kwang3) were just talking about girls , guys ...
typical stuff that we encounter in life...
then we all decided to go back to the "pit"...
then pyro and wawan appeared at the same time...we sat...lazed arround...
faris showed us what he encountered at sparks hahaha, kekek-fying...
faris is such a wierdo , well a cute wierdo arrr i guess...
hahaha...
so went back , took bus with hawa and wawan...
thanks to saifaz hu sponsored my tambangz...
when i got home , teros KO ...
ngantokz...
k arrr...i started this post at 1258 finished at 1313
[Your Name Here] @ Saturday, April 23, 2005
Friday, April 22
wah , today woke up early ...
met res2 , hahaha , duer2 ngantok giler bapakz...
hahaha...
part upset takleh masok ...
sialz pei cross...
kiter stakat jalan kat luar stadium jerrr dier sound...
knnbccb...
met friends...
was a lively sight...
i miss them...
hahaha...
was feeling happy sia...
untill sampai KFC...
teros off sak mood...
ternampak dier...
nbktt...
sakits sakz...
tapi buat bodoh ajerr arr...
but she was so beautiful sak...
haiz...
well...
i had decided to go back to skul...
nope, not to sign papers...
but to study...
but when i reached that fucking KFC...
teros tak tahu arr...
hahaha...
i wanna study...
yeah!
well...
it's all ur fault...
u made me do it...
FUCK YOUs...
hahaha...tak logics...aku jer paham...
[Your Name Here] @ Friday, April 22, 2005
well finally able to get into blogger...
k , i guess just now , errr , YESTERDAY...
was a really great time...hahaha...
i dunnoe how , but we ended up "fighting"...
hahaha...
saifaz was my acting father , pyro was my pakcik that sells roti...
tetekz (kwang3) was this gay pakcik , res2 was pakcik mandol , hahaha...
and i was this delinquent of a child...
ahakz , go figure...
was kekek-fying...
gotta see it to understand...
hahaha...
had a great time...
ohw when i was on the way home...
there was this guy who came up to me and asked for change for busfare...
i only had 10cents...
hahaha...
well really2 had to help him...
din feel nice...
so i decided to ask around to help him out...
and i realised sumthing...
SINGAPOREANS ARE FUCKING SELFISH!!!
yes they are ...
not trying to be rascist but , especially chinese , and indians play ignorant , AND MALAYS DISGRACE OUR OWN RACE...
everyone would like people to help them , but not the other way...
i just gotta say FUCK YOU ALL...
well , i guess i met someone new...
would sure tegur him when i meet him again...
eh eh , pyro , kalau kau bacer nie...
NAMER ORANG TU ABG AMAN ...
adek bradek pakcik aman kotz...
k k , i gotta sign off , watching movies...
bored...
[Your Name Here] @ Friday, April 22, 2005
Thursday, April 21
woke up with this really huge headache...
well , ever been rolled over by a huge big mac???
well thats how big that headache is...
hahaha...
well , evry1 is at school...
haiz...
miss the guys ...
miss the girls...
wunder what they are doing now...
prolly making fun of
mr pay???
just ,
probably...
hey guys , can't wait for the next time to lepakz...
it was funz...
i guess...
ok maybe its the big mac toking , i'm currently feeling confused...
not sure what i'll do today , still stuck on the
™ :×§tå§¥: ™ of yesterday...
and guys , terus terang arr , kalau tol2 ader minum tu kan...
aku cakap ngan korang takmoh arr...takmoh...
TAKMOH MINUM TANPA AKU!!!kwang3...
eh ok larr...mau mandi , get back again tonites...
[Your Name Here] @ Thursday, April 21, 2005
Wednesday, April 20
WOW!!!
thats been a while since i "lepakz" with peeple...
i realise even more that i have even more friends than i think...
eventhough we joke around and stuff...
they still try to help me out...
haiz...
too bad i just made up my mind...
went to lepakz with Pyro , Wawan , Res2 , Burn , Mukh , Wando , SaiFaz , Tetekz (kwang3) and hawa...
well hawa was doing work...
had a really great time with them...
then Syahiran came , dunnoe why he was so damn quiet...
Had laughs , even when the air was still , din really get THAT bored ...
b4 i went home , had some guy to guy tok , hahaha...
with a great friend of mine...
we tried to understand girls...
but still , hahaha ...
i decided that "hidup tak usah ader pompan , pompan akhirnya hanya membebankan hidop kita"
but the other part of me was deny-ing it...
well had to rush home , i realised i still dunnoe the last bus for 39...
paisey arr beb...
and the whole time we whined about our heartbreaks and heartaches...
there was this couple LITERALLY making out in front of us (k larh,not making out,but i think they were about to,hahaha)
hahaha, nasib baik i put in $1.50 for the drink , if not i would have thrown it at them...
haha...
PAISEY ARR BEB AKU TADI KELAM-KABUT BALIKZ...
now i'm home...
words of wisdom :~
"HIDUP HANYALAH SEBUAH KHAYALAN , DUNIA HANYALAH SEBUAH CABARAN"
haha, imagine me saying words of wisdom , hahaha...well...
YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME ... think again...
[Your Name Here] @ Wednesday, April 20, 2005
another day , another chance ...
a chance to make things right again ...
but its hard , to change...
ohw wells...
ASK ME OUT GUYS!!!!
hahaha, no , SERIOUSLY...
ok , well lately have realised that i have more friends than i have
ever imagined...
noone was looking down on me...
just myself...
well , maybe there are some who looks down on me , well u guys can go to hell...
what matters is u dun look down on urself...
would be taking over mums tuition soon...
that would give me some income...
its not much , but it would do...
untill i could get a better job...
its a start...
any1 who reads this and has a job opening , tell me ok!!!
email : wakrang@yahoo.com
ohw wells...i'll update again tonites...
[Your Name Here] @ Wednesday, April 20, 2005
another day , another chance ...
a chance to make things right again ...
but its hard , to change...
ohw wells...
ASK ME OUT GUYS!!!!
hahaha, no , SERIOUSLY...
ok , well lately have realised that i have more friends than i have
ever imagined...
noone was looking down on me...
just myself...
well , maybe there are some who looks down on me , well u guys can go to hell...
what matters is u dun look down on urself...
would be taking over mums tuition soon...
SOON...
ohw wells...i'll update again tonites...
[Your Name Here] @ Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Tuesday, April 19
ok , since lots of people been PESTERING me ,
sooooo , I'M BACK!!! ...
well to the DELIGHT of some to the DISLIKE many...
nowadays been rather boring yet cool ...
decided to stop school , but still need to sign papers ,
which means have to go back , haiz...
have to see the faces of those i dread...
soon...
well need to go for counselling sessions for smoking , pay $30 for fine...
then on the 28th need to go to juvenile court ...
well guys , those whom i told you the fine was $300 , sorry , read it wrong...
basically been doing my TYS , well whatever TYS i had...
stayed at home most of the time ...
played games ,even damn well OUTDATED games...
looking forward to going out again...
so anyone who is free , just ask me out ...
ok ok , i've updated ok ...
AND TO THE CLASS OF 2A1 , BLACK MISSES YOU GUYS
[Your Name Here] @ Tuesday, April 19, 2005